[verse 1]
little anger
a blessing to be capable of fire
a heart of rolling thunder
does it burn you to be 
so possessed by your heat?
never surely complete, 
don't i know it?

little sadness
so easily convinced 
its all just madness 
your self inflicted malice
does it scare you to be
what the mirror repeats?
no pretending, just me
don't i know it?

[chorus]
so many selves inside me
my self assurance hiding
i stumble thru me blindly
as blind can be
oh always does it hurt me, to be 
something secret, unseen
never surely complete
don’t i know it?

oh little simulacra
the pain it takes to know ya
i wish that i could feel you in another way
my darling, my companion
you see, every atom of me
do you like what you see?
i don’t know it.

[verse 2]
little panic
always a friendly fellow to the manic
so caught up on semantics
does it calm you to know
walking by us, tiptoe?
when the grounds right below,
don't i know it?

little envy
your chartreuse color complements me nicely
that complementing lightly{?}
does it scare you to be 
everything you can be?
never surely complete,
don't i know it?

[chorus]
so many selves inside me
my self assurance hiding
i stumble thru me blindly
as blind can be
oh always does it hurt me, to be 
something secret, unseen
never surely complete
don’t i know it?

oh little simulacra
the pain it takes to know ya
i wish that i could feel you in another way
my darling, my companion
you see, every atom of me
do you like what you see?
i don’t know it.

[verse 3, bridge]
little worry
a blessing to be capable of misery
do you believe that truly
does it please you to be
everything that you see?
self-fulfilled prophecy,
don't i know it?

little hatred
placated by a mirror, self-directed
no inch of me is sacred
does it burn you, to be
everything that you see?
all the bad parts of me?
all the air that you breathe?
in a home you cant leave?
does it hurt you to be?
does it hurt you to be..?

[final chorus, strong]
so many selves inside-
my self assurance hiding
i stumble thru me blindly
as blind can be!
oh always does it hurt me, to be 
something secret, unseen
never surely complete
dont i know it!

oh little simulacra
the pain it takes to know ya
i wish that i could feel you in another way!
my darling, my companion
you see, every atom of me
do you like what you see?
i don’t know it!

[outro]

oh, oh, oh
my reflection, you see
every atom of me
do you like being me?
i don’t know it!

oh, oh
does it burn you to be
so possessed by your heat?
never surely complete
(... sigh)
                    

❤️ song: my darling, my companion - gumi's verse there might actually reference this song backwards, as mdmc is a musical mash of dyad, imaginary effervessent, grand restore, destiny, shrimkus wacky antics and a couple other songs i can't remember rn.
💚 kalia vibte leitmotif - plays during the little envy verse.
❤️ definition: simulacra - a representation or imitation of a person or thing, prolly in reference to jamies plural identity. honestly thats the whole song.
💚 drums: i recognize the drums form imaginary effervecent here but i may just be very drunk lmao

A lot of people overlook the macosx folder, as usually it just has a ds store file and some junk typically for use only for apple computers... sooo Jamie hid the puzzle in there. if you go in youll see 7 gifs: 3 red heart, 3 green heart, and da byrd. when you're in the file view in dropbox you can see the filesize of each gif and uh.

I dont think gifs are meant to be 64MB in size, each.I remembered this in the lucidity of indulging in two cans of strawberry margarita goodness at like 5 am and decided why not crack at it.

SO... a very fun thing you can do with images is embed extra data in them, even putting them in the header of other files, while keeping the image itself completely readable and visable. its an age old exploit used to cause mayhem. i liked to be a dick when i was younger and embed fucked up script in otherwise harmless images, and when they get uploaded the script would run when the image was displayed on the page and cause chaos... anyway!

Jamie did this, but with gifs in the header of wav files - edit out the gif data with hex code and rename them to .wavs and you get your freshly reversed stems. all it was after that was reversing them and properly lining them up in fruityloops and bam, professor layton would be proud!

after explaining my process to her... apparently this isnt what was supposed to be done LOL but its what i know with my computer knowledge T_T ^{im sorryyyy.....} I couldn't tell if the file names meant anything so i just left them as is.
Honestly if she had put an r in "there are no secrets" it wouldve gotten abreviated to trans- trans rights babey!!!!!!!!

oh and also: the chicken gif had a wav embed too


SO FA!

jamie's music has always had this unique touch of involving your emotions in the chords she plays and the words she writes in this very hopeful, dreamlike way, as if you're in a field near the ocean or on an island in the middle of it... and the cloudy, almost gentle cloud layer on the horzion never really clears; hazy and unknown of whats past that barrier, but the sun is still shining through enough that you can see yourself reflected in the ripples of water, giving a sense of familiarity that isn't quite exact, constantly changing. I don't know how else to describe it but her music has always had that vibe w me.

i find it interesting that she incorperates and references herself, her music, stories and oc's in her work in this ever evolving, revolving circle. an original character or a world you create can be based off another part of yourself, one you cant quite understand but you breathe life into so you can get know them... so you understand them sometime and someday understand that reflection of yourself too. i dont know. i've always related hardest to her music that seems to talk within and to her selves, a whole book written and reading within its own pages. the fact that she uses vocaloid not only as their own being but to emulate and duet with parts of herself like a reflection is awesome.

i also just find it neat that she has the same first name as me, but shes jamie p and im jamie g lol